Feasting on the Word of God

"There's a difference between just reading your scriptures every day; just reading your five minutes to fulfill your...obligation. [Joseph Smith] said it came with feeling and with power and force, and he reflected on it again and again, taking that reflection right into the grove. The power is going to be in the depth of the scriptures. Occasionally, we can just glide through and do something to sustain us for the day, but the real impact is going to come when we reflect and dive down in those feelings." Elder Jeffrey R. Holland, Facetoface March 2017).

When we really read and FEEL the scriptures, then we are able to build our faith in God and draw closer to Christ. We can't be casual all the time. We have to really dig in and read with our spirits. I LOVE that God will help us know the truth and will give us answers if we truly seek them.

Built on the foundation of apostles and prophets

I love General Conference. Every six months we get to hear from the leaders of our church, those whom we sustain as prophets, seers and revelators. Some people might find it strange to have prophets or think we may not need them in our time, but I think, if they had them in the old times, why not now? We're definitely not more righteous than those back in the Old Testament.
In Ephesians 2:19-20 it says that Christ's church was "built on the foundation of apostles and prophets, Jesus Christ being the chief cornerstone..." and I believe thing were that way. I believe it is today, too.

The Bible also tells us that "By their fruits shall ye know them" and from the things I have seen these modern-day men do, I believe they are true followers of Christ. Thomas S. Monson has dedicated his life, since the age of 36 (I'm almost 35...) to going throughout the world and telling people about Jesus Christ and His mission. It's been 53 years since then, and he's been a busy man traveling the world over, helping people and sharing Christ's love.
Some people call our leaders "out-dated" or "old men," but Gordon B. Hinckley (the prophet before President Monson) said that they are old, but "isn't that wonderful?" They've seen more of the world and its trends and patterns. It seems our culture is all about the new, the exciting, but I also see that we don't really respect our elders as being wise as many other cultures do. We mock them for being "old fashioned" and "out of touch" and we all too often put them in nursing homes and "visit them weekly... or monthly... or just ignore them rather than bringing them into our own homes and making sure they are REALLY getting proper care. Granted, there are situations where they really do need extra attention from medical personnel or the safety provided in a nursing home, in which case nursing homes have their purpose. 
I feel so blessed to know that Christ is guiding these leaders and encouraging us, through them, to follow Him and serve Him. We are to be His hands.
If we're struggling, they counseled us to seek direction from the Lord. Sometimes we don't get answers when we want them, but we should doubt our fears before we doubt our faith.
My favorite piece of wisdom from the prophet was "Choose the harder right, not the easier wrong."

It's easy to choose what everyone else is doing, even if you know it's wrong. But as Christians, we need to defend the right, especially in the last days as Satan gains more power over the earth. Dare to stand alone... for we're never really alone when we stand with our Savior.

Finding Peace

"And all thy children shall be taught of the Lord; and great shall be the peace of thy children." Isaiah 54:13

I don't know if anyone else has noticed, but, um.... our world of kind of scary. Like wars, random crazy shootings, scary nasty super contagious diseases, financial insecurity, kids thinking they should be able to get handouts because they exist, lack of respect of anything or anyone, and the list goes on. Life is hard. And can be scary. But we can have peace.

As a parent, I can see that my kids are going to have to deal with an even crazier world. I want to send them into that world with as much as I can give them. I wouldn't drop my kids off for a long hike without water, food, shoes, a map or compass, so why would I want to send them into the scary unknown without a way to find peace??
Christ is the giver of peace. Without Him, there is no purpose in life. There is no hope. Only He can give us the light in our dark times. I hope, if there's one thing that truly sticks with my children, it is Faith in Christ. Hope for good things to come. So when things aren't looking so good, they can find peace.

"Cast not away therefore your confidence"

Sometimes things are tough. Physically, emotionally, spiritually. Difficult things help us see what we can get through and help us understand who we really are.
However, when the tough times arrive, you have to be prepared. You can't start preparing then.

For me, a personal testimony of Jesus Christ and the Restored Gospel as found in The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints is especially important. As things change in the world around us, we have to be grounded in our faith and really have come to KNOW that what we believe is true. Otherwise, when challenges arise, and they will, if we haven't built on solid ground, we can be more easily shaken.
Sometimes there are things that are hard to understand. We can't see with our limited view the reason for certain events. Isaiah 55:8-9.  We can, however, have faith that in time, we'll come to understand all things. If you have prayed to your Father in Heaven and received your witness of truth, when the hard times come, you must rely on that. One of the latter-day Apostles said "Doubt your doubts before you doubt your faith(Dieter F. Uchtdorf, October 2013 General Conference)."
I think we tend to forget to do that.
We have a personal trial where we just can't understand why it would happen to us.  Somebody says something that we don't agree with, but they're a leader, so we're supposed to follow them.  God tells us to ASK him. He'll help us understand in due time.
In The Book of Mormon, one of the first stories we read about is Lehi receiving a vision (a dream) that his family needs to pack up and leave Jerusalem. His son, Nephi, goes along without heistation, following his father's counsel. He later says, "I know that [God] loveth His children; nevertheless, I do not know the meaning of all things."
Sometimes, we need to take a step into the darkness before the light comes. If we look back at the things we've felt, the things we've been assured of, we can use that testimony to get us through until we're feeling strong again. If you have read The Book of Mormon and you received an answer that it was true, and that God restored His Church through the Prophet Joseph Smith, you can trust that and pray for understanding of things that come that are difficult. As Paul says in the New Testament, "Cast not away therefore your confidence." (See Hebrews 10:35)

I have felt the Holy Spirit tell me that The Book of Mormon is true. Joseph Smith translated it. I have also had a witness that Thomas S. Monson is the Prophet for our day. I have to trust that God has a reason for all He does, and that someday, I will understand. For now, I can seek for peace until the understanding comes. I have had experiences with that. I don't always understand why, but I know God does, and that is enough.

Family History

A while ago, I printed off my ancestry fan chart and was given the challenge to fill in the holes. Since then, I've tried to get some help. I have no idea what I'm doing, so I've asked to have family history consultants come teach
me. A few times. And it's been a few years.
Today, I got online for 10 minutes, clicked on a few things, and was able to find a generation that wasn't on my list. Parents of one of my great great grandparents. I've heard that when you want to find people, their spirits assist you from the other side. This is my first experience, and I had no clue what I was doing, so I believe they were there guiding me to find them. All it took was a few minutes today.
I know not every time will be like this, but I'm amazed that God let me have this little experience to show me how important my family is. And how important temples are. That is where we bind our families for eternity.

Mom time

Since having my fourth child, I haven't exercised nearly as much as I'd like. One day I was thinking that this might be ok as long as I focusing on the kids. But then I read a talk from the October 2014 General Conference. And basically it said that our spirits are connected to our bodies so we need to take care both of them. I also know that my body is a sacred gift from God and I should take care of it, but how is a homeschooling mother of 4 supposed to find any time to fit in a workout? With baby it's hard to wake up early in the morning, and if I try to do it during the day it gets interrupted or it takes me an hour to get everybody ready and then they have to go with me...which they hate and complain about the whole time.
About 2 months ago I decided that I just needed to bite the bullet. I was awake most mornings at around 6 o'clock anyway, so I just decided to go running in the morning for a half hour. It started mostly walking in a little bit running, but then as I did it more, they're running was faster and the walking was less. There was that magical day when I ran the entire 3 miles in a half hour. I remember later that day walking up the hill near our house and not being winded.
Recently at a Stake conference, which is basically a meeting for church just locally, the President of the Stake was giving his talk. He talked about how he had read a talk from General Conference. He mentioned how the speaker had said our spirits and our bodies are connected and we cannot expect to receive revelation without keeping our bodies healthy. And then he talked about how he had decided that the easiest way for him to work out would be going running. He said that when he played sports with his kids, he was able to keep up with themnow. As I sat listening to his talk, I felt happy inside, seeing that somebody else, somebody that I hold in high regard, felt the same way. I had something in common with him.
I realize now our bodies are important and I do need to take care of mine. That doesn't mean I need to obsess over it, but I need to show the Lord I am grateful for this wonderful gift. I hope that as I keep my body in good shape, that I will be able to feel the Holy Spirit and keep my spirit in good shape as well.

On mercy and forgiveness....

I have been thinking a lot about being forgiving lately. I have been reading some about the Amish people in our country and amazed at the readiness in which they try to forgive. I feel like being unforgiving is actually more damaging to us. We re-hash things over and over and over and it can become consuming.  I have been very blessed; I am pretty easy-going and don't really hold onto things for long.  This sometimes drives my husband crazy--once it's out, I'm usually over it.

I did have one experience with being unforgiving that was a lesson to me. I have a dear friend who had some horrible things happen to her and freely forgave those who wronged her.  WE had an experience together where there were some people who just were "out to get us."  I don't know how else to explain it.  They would try to trip us in our words and actions, make anything we did into a mistake by how it was portrayed, and they were just plain mean.  Several years later, we were enjoying some time together again and talking about things of the past.  I never felt super angry or upset towards these people, but didn't have good feelings either.  While we were together, she was talking about how she just forgave them (they had been much worse to her than me!) and I realized that I needed to. Shortly after, I felt an immense weight lifted as I forgave them,  a burden I didn't know I carried. Jesus Christ's sacrifice was not only for those who sin, it was for those who have been wronged as well. Just as he forgave the woman taken in adultery for her sin, he helps those who were hurt by another's actions be free from their pain, but we have to be willing to let it go.

Alma 7:11-12 says,  "And he shall go forth suffering pains, and afflictions and temptations of every kind.  And this that the word might be fulfilled which saith he shall take upon him the pains and sicknesses of his people.
"And he will take upon him death, that he may loose the bands of death which bind his people; and he will take upon him their infirmities that his bowels may be filled with mercy; that he may know, according to the flesh, how to succor his people, according to their infirmities."
Jesus Christ suffered everything we will suffer.  Guilt, sorrow, hurt, sickness, weakness... everything. He did it so he'd know how to help you.  And me.


Not to be ignored, though, is the fact that we can be forgiven of our sins.  They can be wiped from our eternal plate. Everyone does wrong.  If we are truly, earnestly repenting and giving those sins up, God doesn't remember them so neither should we.  The bigger the sin, the harder the process of repentance, but the forgiveness is just as complete.

Luke 7:40-43 says,

"And Jesus answering said unto him, Simon, I have somewhat to say unto thee. And he saith, Master,say on.
"And there was a certain creditor which had two debtors, the one owed five hundred pence, and the other fifty.
"And when they had nothing to pay, he frankly forgave them both.  Tell me therefore, which of them will love him most?
"Simon answered and said, I suppose that he, to whom he forgave most.  And he said unto him, Thou hast rightly judged."

I think our society has a tendency to label people too often. Christ taught us to cast a stone only when we ourselves are free from sin.  The Amish people forgave and even helped the family of the man who came in to their community school and killed their children. As followers of Christ, we should be forgiving. It is not our place to judge someone.  We don't know their circumstances, their thoughts, their motives, their struggles. Sometimes there's no way they can ever right the wrong for what's been done. We are commanded to love.  That doesn't mean to let someone hurt us over and over and over, but it does mean we can forgive them and show them love as Christ would.

Followers of Christ should be obedient to the two great commandments:  to love God and to love one another.

If we don't, we might be carrying unnecessary (and unknown!) burdens of our own and keeping someone else from getting through their repentance.